Ugh!!

So frustrated today, Hurting which seems to be a daily thing now, The tylenol i take doent work but anything stonger makes me feel crappy and out of sorts, i havnt worked in months, doing housework makes me tired. I feel pretty worthless, i used to work 3 jobs, i put myself through college and now I'm fighting with DHS and Social Security for anything. If it wasnt for my boyfriend i think mentally i would have lost it long ago. Today called DHS 4 times about papers they sent me, no return call yet and of course no one answers the phone. Got a paper for the doctos office to fill out and without current medical its $165 to see the doctor and they wont just fill it out. But both offices say they may not fill them out at all due to legal liability. So that poses the question what the hell? Right?! Trying to find a therapist is getting to be just as frustrating and i havnt seen one in almost two months and i can feel myself slipping back into a depession, my nightmares and flashbacks are coming back and im starting to get parinod and not wanting to leave the house. I just dont know how to get out of this cycle!